Tuesday, September 14, 2010
"It's never too late for people to change."
I got the attention from guys definitely but that wasn't enough. To be "cool" and accepted, I tried smoking, played truant, skip classes, spoke back to my teachers, vandalized school properties and I even slashed my wrists. For a period of time, I ate with my wrists facing down to the table to avoid getting noticed by my parents. I was rude to my family members each time they showed their concern. I repeated that year before eventually getting kicked out of school and blamed my parents for not sending me overseas.
Some may wonder but I am from a close-knitted family who shares everything... I just didn't tell them about my new "activities".
To cut the story short, I failed my A levels as a private candidate and didn't get to the university. I went through depression at the age of 23 as I felt small without a degree and my pay was meagre and I started slashing my wrists again to "take away the pain" (but never to commit suicide).
Now, at 30, I have 2 diplomas from SIM and NIE (National Institute of Education) and currently pursuing a degree in counselling. This is also my 9th year as a teacher and I no longer regret my past coz it has moulded me to be who I am today. I'm rather old to be an undergrad but never too old! =)
I am who I am because of my past and because of that little hope that so many people believed in. My mum always tell me: "It's never too late for people to change. It may take months or even years but people do change eventually." =)
Written by: Huda
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